As we noted in the
beginning of our study of The Ladder, the goal of all spiritual labors
is communion with God. We do not
seek an abstract vision of the Divine, nor do we labor for a legal verdict
declaring us "not guilty."
Rather, we aim at communion and union; we set our sights on the true,
intimate knowledge of God which is "life eternal" (John 17:3). According to St. John, prayer must be
looked at as both the means to and the achievement of this knowledge.
The
goal of prayer is God. This is
important to note as we begin. In
prayer and through prayer we seek Him.
How easy it is for us to reduce prayer to the fulfillment of some
external "rule of prayer" which must be completed before we can
continue on with the fulfillment of our other "external"
requirements. The great tragedy of
our spiritual lives is that prayer itself can become part of this "world
and its ways" rather than an abandonment of this world so as to pursue the
next. "Rise from the love of
the world and the love of pleasure.
Put care aside, strip your mind, refuse your body. Prayer, after all, is a turning away
from the world, visible and invisible.
What have I in heaven? What
have I longed for on earth besides You?
Nothing except to cling to You in undistracted prayer. Wealth pleases some, glory others,
possession others, but what I want is to cling to God and to put the hopes of
my dispassion in Him"
Understood in this light, prayer thus is itself a means of purification
and of judgment. "War reveals
the love of a soldier for his king, and the time and practice of prayer show up
a monk's love for God. So your
prayer shows where you stand."
Prayer is a mirror, showing to us the true nature of our desires and of
our love. If we love God, we will
love to pray. The stronger the
love for God, the greater our hearts will be drawn to the dialog of prayer, the
more He will be the object of our thoughts and desires, the more He will
consume us and become the end of our struggles.
Prayer
has its external aspects: the words, the discipline, the posture, the knots on
the prayer rope. But these external aspects must find their realization in the
internal state of our soul. St.
John outlines a continuous method of prayer which incorporates both of these:
"Get ready for your set time of prayer by unceasing prayer in your
soul." For the true struggler
for God, prayer is not episodic; it is a way of life. Its external expression changes: sometimes it is the reading
of psalms, other times the singing of hymns, still further it may be the quiet
saying of the Jesus prayer or the recollection of God in the fulfillment of our
daily tasks. Gradually, prayer
itself establishes its own rhythm in our lives. In the beginning we force ourselves to pray; in the end it
is prayer itself which forces us.
For
those who are beginning the spiritual life, prayer requires hard work. Here the external aspects of prayer
dominate. We can only learn to
prayer one way: by doing it. And
by doing lots of it . . . over and over again, training our hearts to recognize
and feel the words spoken by our mouths and considered in our minds. We force ourselves to practice. Very often this seems strange and
foreign to us. It does not seem
natural; we totter and stumble. We
finish our prayers and feel as if we have simply said "words" without
really praying them. We may often
feel "hypocritical" in our prayers, as if they are external and
therefore fake. This is the
beginning of prayer. If we persevere,
pushing ourselves to say the words and urging our hearts to join the mind and
the mouth, prayer will become internalized. Prayer will not be something which comes from the outside,
but it will come from the inside out.
The words will flow from our hearts, rather than off the page. We will still say and think the same
words, but these words will be ours, rather than someone else's. Our mouths, minds and hearts will be
one. Our being will be united in
prayer. This is the middle stage
of prayer. If we persevere in
this, not allowing our hearts to become distracted, the experience of prayer
becomes so much a part of us that the words themselves fade away and prayer
becomes ecstasy and the immediate presence of God. This is the third and final stage; this is deification, the
heights of theosis, to which only the saints rise in this life.
As
we struggle to pray, there are several attitudes which we must be careful to
maintain. The first is
humility. Satan tries to rob us of
our humility during prayer by taking away from us the simplicity necessary to
true prayer. He divides us by
getting us to think about ourselves even as we are praying. We observe ourselves from the outside,
thinking about how well we are praying, how long we have been praying, etc. To pray is to lose ourselves in God; it
is to abandon the pursuit of self by pursuing God. Satan also tries to rob us of our humility after we pray by
telling us how good we are and how effective and powerful our prayers are for
others. Once again, notice how he
tempts us to externalize our prayer and to focus not on God, but on ourselves
as "pray-ers" The truth
is: we cannot pursue God so long as we think about ourselves.
Another
important attitude necessary for true prayer is gratitude. St. John advises: "Heartfelt
thanksgiving should have first place in our book of prayer." All prayer to be true prayer must be
eucharistic. This means that
prayer must flow out of a thankful heart.
Before it becomes intercession, prayer is first a response to grace
received. A thankful heart is of
necessity driven to give thanks.
It cannot remain silent, but is must communicate its thankfulness to the
Source of all blessings.
Still
further, for our prayer to lead to union with God, it is always necessary for it
to be offered in a spirit of contrition.
St. John notes: "Even if you have climbed the whole ladder of the
virtues, pray still for the forgiveness of sins." If we ever appear in God's presence and
think that we belong there, if we ever lose sight of the priority of grace and
our need for it at all times, then we have lost prayer. It is for certain that we are not
talking to God but only to ourselves or worse yet to Satan who has the capacity
of transforming himself into an angel of light. Contrition is the key to being delivered from spiritual
delusion. Those who pray in a
spirit of repentance are not easily fooled by Satan and his demonic hosts.
Finally,
and perhaps most important of all, we must understand that prayer is not
something gained simply from the teaching of others. St. John writes: "You cannot learn to see just because
someone tells you to do so. For
that, you require your own natural power of sight. In the same way, you cannot discover from the teaching of
others the beauty of prayer.
Prayer has its own special teacher in God. He grants the prayer of him who prays. And He blesses the years of the just."
1-3 Prayer
defined.
Prayer
is by nature a dialog and a union of man with God. Its effect is to hold the world together. It achieves reconciliation with God.
Prayer
is the mother and daughter of tears.
It is an expiation of sin, a bridge across temptation, a bulwark against
affliction. It wipes out conflict,
is the work of angels, and is the nourishment of all bodiless beings. Prayer is future gladness, action
without end, wellspring of virtues, source of grace, hidden progress, food of
the soul, enlightenment of the mind, an axe against despair, hope demonstrated,
sorrow done away with. It is
wealth for monks, treasure of hermits, anger diminished. It is a mirror of progress, a
demonstration of success, evidence of one's condition, the future revealed, a
sign of glory. For the man who
really prays it is the court, the judgment hall, the tribunal of the Lord - and
this prior to the judgment that is to come.
4-18 St.
John then describes the necessary preparation for true prayer, the essential
attitudes that help to foster prayer and the perseverance required to sustain
prayer.
Those
of us wishing to stand before our King and God and to speak with Him should not
rush into this without some preparation, lest it should happen that - seeing us
from afar without arms and without the dress appropriate to those who appear
before the King - He should command His servants and His slaves to lay hold of
us, to drive us out of His sight, to tear up our petitions and to throw them in
our faces.
When
you set out to appear before the Lord, let the garment of your soul be woven
throughout with the thread of wrongs no longer remembered. Otherwise, prayer will be useless to
you.
Pray
in all simplicity. The publican
and the prodigal son were reconciled to God by a single utterance.
.
. . heartfelt thanksgiving should have first place in our book of prayer. Next should be confession and genuine
contrition of soul. After that
should come our request to the universal King.
In
your prayers there is no need for high-flown words, for it is the simple and
unsophisticated babblings of children that have more often won the heart of the
Father in heaven.
Try
not to talk excessively in your prayer, in case your mind is distracted by the
search for words. One word from
the publican sufficed to placate God, and a single utterance saved the thief. Talkative prayer frequently distracts
the mind and deludes it, whereas brevity makes for concentration.
However
pure you may be, do not be forward in your dealings with God. Approach Him rather in all humility,
and you will be given still more boldness. And even if you have climbed the whole ladder of the
virtues, pray still for the forgiveness of sins. Heed Paul's cry regarding sinners "of whom I am the
first" (1 Tim 1:15).
Make
the effort to raise up, or rather, to enclose your mind within the words of
your prayer; and if, like a child, it gets tired and falters, raise it up
again. The mind, after all, is
naturally unstable, but the God who can do everything can also give it firm
endurance. Persevere in this,
therefore, and do not grow weary; and He who sets a boundary to the sea of the
mind will come to you too during your prayer and will say, "Thus far you
shall come, and no farther" (Job 38:11). Spirit cannot be bound, but where He is found everything
yields to the Creator of spirit.
19-37 In
the following paragraphs, St. John describes the various stages of prayer,
those things which lead to its degradation, appropriate forms of posture and
when they should be used, the ultimate goal of prayer, and the value of prayer
in and of itself - regardless of whether or not it offers us any consolation. He also speaks of how a monk must
conduct himself at the times before prayer and the importance of being faithful
to designated times for prayer.
The
beginning of prayer is the expulsion of distractions from the very start by a
single thought; the middle stage is the concentration on what is being said or
thought; its conclusion is rapture in the Lord.
If
you are careful to train your mind never to wander, it will stay by you even at
mealtimes. But if you allow it to
stray freely, then you will never have it beside you.
There
is a difference between the tarnish of prayer, its disappearance, the robbery
of it, and its defilement. Prayer
is tarnished when we stand before God, our minds seething with irrelevancies. It disappears when we are led off into
useless cares. It is robbed when
our thoughts stray without our realization of the fact. And it is defiled when we are in any
way under attack.
If
we happen not to be alone at the time of prayer, let us form within ourselves
the demeanor of someone who prays.
But if the servants of praise are not sharing our company, we may openly
put on the appearance of those at prayer.
For among the weak, the mind often conforms to the body.
Total
contrition is necessary for everyone, but particularly for those who have come
to the King to obtain forgiveness of their sins.
Rise
from love of the world and love of pleasure. Put care aside, strip your mind, refuse your body. Prayer, after all, is a turning away
from the world, visible and invisible.
What have I in heaven?
Nothing. What have I longed
for on earth besides You? Nothing
except simply to cling always to You in undistracted prayer. Wealth pleases some, glory others,
possessions others, but what I want is to cling to God and to put the hopes of
my dispassion in Him.
Our
good Redeemer, by speedily granting what is asked, draws to His love those who
are grateful. But He keeps
ungrateful souls praying a long time before Him, hungering and thirsting for
what they want, since a badly trained dog rushes off as soon as it is given
bread and leaves the giver behind.
After
a long spell of prayer, do not say that nothing has been gained, for you have
already achieved something. For,
after all, what higher good is there than to cling to the Lord and to persevere
in unceasing union with Him?
Get
ready for your set time of prayer by unceasing prayer in your soul. In this way, you will soon make
progress. I have observed
that those who were outstanding in obedience and who tried as far as possible
to keep in mind the thought of God were in full control of their minds and wept
copiously as soon as they stood in prayer, for holy obedience had prepared them
for this.
War
reveals the love of a soldier for his king, and the time and practice of prayer
show up a monk's love for God. So
your prayer shows where you stand.
Indeed, theologians say that prayer is a monk's mirror.
Someone
who is occupied with some task and continues with it at the hour of prayer is
being fooled by the demons, for these thieves aim to steal one hour after
another from us.
38-48 Our
prayer must be examined closely to determine its true quality and power. As prayer develops, John states, there
is less need for words or images.
Both can lead to distraction.
A
child is examined each day without fail regarding what he has learned from his
teacher. And it is reasonable to
ask that there be a reckoning of each prayer we have undertaken, in order that
we may have an idea of the power we have received from God. You should see to this. And when you have prayed soberly, you
will soon have to cope with bouts of ill temper, something our enemies aim for.
When
a man has found the Lord, he no longer has to use words when he is praying, for
the Spirit Himself will intercede for him with groans that cannot be uttered
(Rom 8:26).
Do
not form sensory images during prayer, for distraction will certainly follow.
49-64 We
must learn, St. John tells us, to seize the moment when the Spirit beckons us
to prayer, especially when given an abundance of fervor and contrition. When in the midst of prayer we must
drive off temptations and anything, good or bad, that might distract us or draw
us to some other activity.
Do
not stop praying as long as, by God's grace, the fire and the water have not
been exhausted, for it may happen that never again in your whole life will you
have such a chance to ask for the forgiveness of your sins.
A
man stands before an earthly monarch.
But he turns his face away and talks to the enemies of the king, and the
king will be offended. In the same
way, the Lord will be offended by someone who at prayer time turns away towards
unclean thoughts. So if the dog
keeps coming, drive him off with a stick and never give in to him, however much
he may persist.
The
hour of prayer is no time for thinking over necessities, nor even spiritual
tasks, because you may lose the better part (Luke 10:42).
If
you are always in dialog with the King in regard to your enemies, take heart
whenever they attack you. A long
struggle will not be necessary for you, for they will soon give up of their own
accord. These unholy beings are
afraid that you may earn a crown as a result of your battle against them
through prayer, and besides, when scourged by prayer they will run away as though
from a fire.
65-66 God,
the true Teacher of prayer.
Always
be brave, and God will teach you your prayer.
You
cannot learn to see just because someone tells you to do so. For that, you require your own natural
power of sight. In the same way,
you cannot discover from the teaching of others the beauty of prayer. Prayer has its own special teacher in
God, who "teaches man knowledge" (Ps. 93:10). He grants the prayer of him who
prays. And He blesses the years of
the just.